Stitches and casts and bandages and antiseptic solve and salve the wounds. But depression is not a sudden disaster. It is more like a cancer: At first its tumorous mass is not even noticeable to the careful eye, and then one day — wham! Depression is a lot like that: Slowly, over the years, the data will accumulate in your heart and mind, a computer program for total negativity will build into your system, making life feel more and more unbearable.
In my case, I was not frightened in the least bit at the thought that I might live because I was certain, quite certain, that I was already dead. The actual dying part, the withering away of my physical body, was a mere formality. My spirit , my emotional being, whatever you want to call all that inner turmoil that has nothing to do with physical existence, were long gone, dead and gone, and only a mass of the most fucking god-awful excruciating pain like a pair of boiling hot tongs clamped tight around my spine and pressing on all my nerves was left in its wake.
In the course of life, there is sadness and pain and sorrow, all of which, in their right time and season, are normal — unpleasant, but normal. Depression is an altogether different zone because it involves a complete absence: absence of affect, absence of feeling, absence of response, absence of interest. Less than nothing, probably. Like, some people get drunk, some people do drugs, some people get depressed. Science fiction It is already happening to some extent in our own society.
Instead of removing the conditions that make people depressed modern society gives them antidepressant drugs. No More Bombs. No More Walking. No More Fun. No More Swimming. That is 17 years past I am always bitchy. No Fun — for anybody. You are getting Greedy. Act your old age. More than pride , which is supposedly the number one of the cardinal sins — is self pity. Self pity is the worst possible emotion anyone can have.
And the most destructive. All those things. And some of them may well even be true. But, to pity oneself as a result of them is to do oneself an enormous disservice. But, just occasionally there will be some example of the absolutely ravening self-pity that they are capable of, and you see it in their talk shows. No one magically becomes an adult the day they turn eighteen. Some people grow up sooner, many grow up later. Some never really do. But just remember that some people in this world are older versions of those same kids we cry for.
He just keeps falling and falling. So they gave up looking.
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They gave it up before they ever really even got started. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye. I know these guys very well. Perhaps everything terrible is in its deepest being something helpless that wants help from us. So you must not be frightened if a sadness rises up before you larger than any you have ever seen; if a restiveness, like light and cloudshadows, passes over your hands and over all you do. You must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; it will not let you fall. Why do you want to shut out of your life any uneasiness, any miseries, or any depressions?
For after all, you do not know what work these conditions are doing inside you. And in the middle of the night I lie here thinking about all this. It is equally important to avoid terrible arguments or expressions of outrage. You should steer clear of emotionally damaging behavior. People forgive, but it is best not to stir things up to the point at which forgiveness is required. When you are depressed, you need the love of other people, and yet depression fosters actions that destroy that love.
Depressed people often stick pins into their own life rafts. The conscious mind can intervene.
One is not helpless. The more persuaded you are of your unique access to the rottenness, the more afraid you become of engaging with the world; and the less you engage with the world, the more perfidiously happy-faced the rest of humanity seems for continuing to engage with it. Suddenly my perspective whooshed and I was far out in space, watching the world. It had closed up and there was nowhere for me to be. I was more lost than I had known it was possible for any human being to be. At the time Switters had disputed her assertion. Even at seventeen, he was aware that depression could have chemical causes.
For most people, self-awareness and self-pity blossom simultaneously in early adolescence. Even an old tomato like me can recall how painful, scary, and disillusioning that realization was. Now, unless someone stronger and wiser — a friend, a parent, a novelist , filmmaker, teacher, or musician — can josh us out of it, can elevate us and show us how petty and pompous and monumentally useless it is to take ourselves so seriously, then depression can become a habit, which, in tern, can produce a neurological imprint.
Are you with me? Gradually, our brain chemistry becomes conditioned to react to negative stimuli in a particular, predictable way. Self-esteem is for sissies. That way lies grace — and maybe even glory. This made me sad and tired. Nothing was slowly clotting my arteries. Then I heard another trumpet, and that moment I already know that there's another one coming, I didn't look up anymore as I'm still in shocked of Uriel. Then I look to the ground, this time it became clear to me that I was standing in a roof top of a building, I saw another angel, his wings are black, he is wearing an armor, I'm not sure if he's Michael or Gabriel, all I know is that he looks so serious and looks like he is looking for something and is ready for battle.
In my dream I was with my friends outside having our lunch. The place is just a typical food shop where we are eating outside the porch of some sort. When suddenly I saw an angel figure in the sky getting closer and closer. The figure started so little that you'll think it's just a peck in the eye but then as it gets closer and closer its getting clearer that it's an angel, I'm not sure what the gender is but the angel's complexion is so fare I didn't see any wings.
The garment the angel is wearing is so white and flowing. When the angel got closer, like almost at reach suddenlly there was a big and loud lighting that scared me and my friend and made us hide under the table. When I look up I see the angel still there but moved to a side showing us a spectable in the sky.
The sky is open then are figures in the sky I can't really comprehend what figures are that but all I remember is that it's like you're looking on a big bloomed flower in the sky with it's petals widely spread. Is this a subconcious thing, because ever since I had the first dream I started doing a lot of research about them?
Am I sick, I remember before, I watched a series wherein a patient is having all the weird dreams and later on showed that the reason why the patient is having these "delusions" is because the patient is sick with cancer"? I am working on some writing projects…worrying, fretting over it — whether it will be a success or whether i will find the right agent etc etc since the past three years…yesterday I saw archangel gabriel in my dreams…he was wearing a long robe and a beautiful light emanated from him i do believe in angels and when time permits I do meditate on the angels ….
In my dream after gabriel appeared in front of me, i did wonder whether gabriel was a female or a male as his face was a little feminine and chubby and he had two pleats…but then in my mind i realised that he was male…his face was very peaceful and radiant…for just a sec i felt afraid but it was just a second and then I felt bold and confident in his presence …and a sense of familiarity…he told me distinctly that "everything will work out in six months…and you will find success,"….
Thanks for sharing your dream Autumn. I think this is a positive sign from the angels that your wish to be a recongnized writer is set to happen. Angels often contact us in our sleep as when we are in a relaxed state we are more open to receiving their messages Linda x. So I just woke up and in my dream there was this one particular scene with an angel. Next to the door that leads outside was my dog laying down, except he was floating in the air a few feet up.
So I was about to bring him back to ground level when I saw him smile a very large, human smile at something straight ahead. So I followed his gaze and i saw something very bright coming from a skylight a few feet away. From the angle that I was at, I only saw the corner of the angel. I had to move to get a better view of it. The angel was very bright and it had wings I think. I say 'it' because I don't remember it having a gender, it was just very bright and almost translucent? This angel was floating in the air and was pretty small compared to a human, it might have been a child.
The angel was smiling big as well. I remember being just so washed with emotion, I couldn't believe that it was happening. In the past couple of months I had seen videos and read articles about people getting a direct message from God or from an angel and I always was really intrigued and I wondered why I couldn't have a holy experience like that. So therefore when I saw the angel, I thought it was real life, and I remember thinking 'oh wow it is finally happening to me, this is amazing.
I wanted to call my dad to quickly come see the angel before it left because my dog was still staring at it happily so that meant that more people than me could see it. But suddenly I felt all my senses start to go numb. It was as if I was dying but I thought over and over again that as much as I love this angel and trust it, I do not want to die because I am not ready. So, I was going unconscious very slowly and I allowed it to happen because I knew that the angel would not let me die. It became hard to speak but I used all my energy to call my dad.
In a mumbled voice, I called my dad's name twice. I think he came right before I went out. And I am not sure completely if I remember the next part, but I think I woke up with my dad there and I was relieved that I was still alive. I have been stressed alot and asking for God's help alot recently so maybe this meant like a rebirth? I wish I could replay that heavenly moment! I have had the same dream 3 night in a row. I am driving down the freeway very fast and an angel is standing in the way and I am going to hit it with my car.
I yell at it to move and get out of they way, but when the words come out of my mouth, they are not my own, but a man's voice, and it sounds really loud and scary.
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It is so loud and intense that it wakes me up. What could this mean. I was crying in my dream and my mom told me that I knew who they were but I had no idea who these boys were so I started praying for their souls to rest in peace and suddenly this bright brilliant light came out and there was this almost 7 footer angel with golden hair I didn't see wings but he or she had a white robe with a purple rope to tie it together, she took them away and I woke up.
Louise, there's a lot of distress in this dream, 'boys crying in need of help to find their father…you were crying'. I sense that your life is probably challenging at the moment and you are in need of emotional help and support. I send you healing. It's lovely that you saw an angel reaching out to help, which is, something I feel you need. Many blessings, Linda. I had a dream last night about an angel.
In my dream I was sitting on the floor in my living room. I look over towards our couch and standing in front of it over me is an angel. She had a almost see through shimmery look to her with shoulder length brown hair, a sharper nose, but a smiling face. I went into complete shock in the dream. My first thought was "Oh my gosh I am hallucinating. This is probably brain death like people who see things right as they are dying. The angel just stood there as if she had seen this type of panic before.
My next thought was "Oh my gosh, she's real. This is real. They are real. With that I woke up. Years ago in my preteens I had several dreams in which a man named Michael frequently showed up in. Later I found out that Michael is actually an angel, and the situations in the dreams he was guiding me through were relevant to what he deals with…like death and displacement and such. The last dream I had with an angel, I didn't realize he was an angel at first… but some of the symbolism in the dream was a black leather bound Bible on a short coffee table with three claw marks in it.
I then walked into the bedroom where an old friend of mine was sleeping it was night in the dream. There was a very bright light coming from the closet. I opened the doors, and a man stepped out. Very handsome with dark hair and blue? I looked at the warmth of the light inside…it was Heaven. Simple, bright, warm…Home. I wanted to step through, but the man stopped me. He said, "It is not yet your time. You must save them. I still have no idea who I'm supposed to save…and I'm still praying for another sign so that I may understand my purpose.
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I had a dream that me and my family were singing in front of our house and then a beautiful angel came out of the sky and started singing with us. I don't understand the meaning but I'm hoping that I will Know soon. In my dream my niece and I saw an a magnificent what seemed to have looked like an archangel angel. In my dream I was scared to tell anyone, only my niece and I knew about it.
The angel told us not to tell anyone that we had seen him. He was very peaceful I could tell and we were so close to touching him,until he flew away!! What does that mean? I had a dream about a necklace which had angel figure made on it. In my dream The shopkeeper tells me its not available.
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The angel had a crown on his head with a smile on his face. I asked the price but didnt have intention to buy it either. I didnt get the meaning. I just had a dream that I was in love with to a male angel. He also had 3 daughters about 2 years apart with blond curls. One of them wanted to style my hair but their dad did it instead. I remember the style, God bless you always! This happened during the Christmas. Unfortunately, I had fever those days.
I think I felt sad when I went to bed that night. Anyways, I dreamed a lot of angels around my bed, all over my bedroom, shining white light. They were asking me some questions. And they all disappeared and I went back to sleep? Actually, it felt so real that I really thought I saw angels? And the next moment I saw two big beautiful male angels hovering on either side of me. Like they were guarding me.. Then i woke up, with such a lovely feeling.
I have this dream that I introduce my self to Noah as Uriel and i then tell him that god him self will fill the earth so that none of him that is evel will remain i then tell him build a boat and save the good of god. I then wake up. Hi, I dreamt of twin angels, small children, I thought they looked like me as a child…then an older one spoke a heavenly message but I do not know what it was…it just sounded divine, woke me up smiling in the night!
Any idea of the meaning, I would be so grateful of it. Many thanks and best wishes, J. I had a dream about 30 years ago and to this day it is still with me I was goning throug a Divorce my husban had left me for a other woman and in my dream that day there was a storm coming up the wind was geting up and out side my lown cher was blowing out in the yard so I whent out side to get it that when I saw the angel up on top of my house with the water hose water down my bed room the one that I still sleep in to this day and I Look At her and said what are you doing up there she never said a word at me when she got throug with the water hose she let it go drop it down and I whent over to shot offthe water hose and it shot off it safe then my angel look at me and smile at me and then she whent up in the sky I can hear her wing still felking togather this day just would love to know what this dream mean she had a white rob on and she had black hair I can Remember this today just like it was that night that I dream it.
But I know That I an say that From this day untill the day that God call me home she is my angel wztchi g over me God think you for my angel that night that she came in to my dream but I love to know what doug this dream mean to me if you know let me know. Thank again God for my angel!!
My dream: I was outside ,maybe camping , My oldest daughter an I was laying down looking at the night sky. When we saw a spot in the sky that looked like dark bubbling clouds after a minute or so light shined through it an white clouds came out looked to be in the shape of angels, I wanna say 12 of them, they turned into like a line then into like a falling star an whistled as they fell.
Next thing I know there was like white images somewhat manly ,I guess, an they was like light an 1 of them was just like starring into my eyes an I woke up ,wondering what this is trying to tell me! I dreamed of Archangel Chamuel last night…a beautiful dream. I could feel them and kept hearing their name being called inside of me and all around me very loud and clear. I woke up feeling loved and at peace… I also saw a glowing orange pyramid. Your email address will not be published.
After some conversation, Jacob opened his bag and very quietly gave Zach a book. They both knew that if someone saw him pass that book it could cost him his life. Zach asked what it was and Jacob said that he would find out later. I went to the driver and asked him where the man sitting next to me had gone?
Who was Jacob? What was he? Then he remembered that Jacob had said he was on his way to Mahabad to meet a friend called Zach. Now Zach realised that it was him! He went home and found his mother in the house crying. She was so surprised and happy to see him after so many months. Shocked and appalled, he went to his room and wept. They told me that he was hanged… I could not eat.
I got up and went to my room for some more weeping… I had nothing to do, so I took out the book and started reading. After reading the first chapters of the book of Genesis, I started reading the book of Matthew. I was surprised.
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I had never seen anything like this. I stopped at chapter ten and just went to bed. Zach could still hear his Mother and sister crying downstairs. The neighbours came to cheer them up and talk to them. Life became relatively normal again until one night in a dream Jacob appeared and told him that he must leave Kurdistan.
I did not want to leave the country; I loved it.